Well, we have reached the last of my Xanga entries. I finally started to open up about how Brian and I had issues with our marriage. I also discovered MySpace, which eventually replaced Xanga. From reading all of my entries, I have realized how much I have changed in the past 5-6 years.. and for the better!
Also, just by doing these blogs, I have had others tell me they looked up their old Xanga account too. Maybe some of them will follow suit and post some (for fun and for a few giggles). If anyone does, let me know. I'd love to read them :-)
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Wednesday, March 15, 2006
I'm going to give all of my baby-less friends a good word of advice.
Having one is easy until they start walking. After that.... NOTHING is safe! If Truman sees anything with a button, he's pushing it. His new thing is climbing. I've caught him climbing onto the couch, the mantle, and on his push-along toys to get himself higher to reach something.
Besides the Truman life, I've been doing better. Brian and I have been talking a lot about our issues and we've got a lot fixed. Not everything can be perfect.... that's just life (why sugar-coat life? You'll end up with a false sense of reality).
Oh, the hail that we got on Sunday totally screwed up my Galant. There are at least 30 golf ball and quarter-sized hail dents. Brian took it to a body shop for an estimate and they quoted repairs at $3100 dollars. I was shocked and our insurance company will do it (after the $500 deductible). I will recommend to everyone that if you have a car problem, you'll have to wait until everyone else's hail disasters are taken care of.
Well, I'm off here for now. I'm going to research music from the 1990's so my sister can make me some kick ass CD's!!!!
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
Victimized
I have fallen victim to a new journal site.
My Space
I think what got me hooked is that I can find friends from when I lived in Grandview (and I already found four of them).
I'm also reunited with people from high school.... more or less the ones that knew me (and vice versa) and now we are chatting all the time.
I have run into a lot of my graduating class at my work of all places. I talked to Mindi Emanuel for about 10 minutes a couple days ago. I also saw Courtney Johnson, Kasey Matthews, Dustin Young, Brandon Reno (and his wife Heather from LSN), and many more.
How nearly four years after high school have already flown by...
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Last Saturday...
On last Saturday night, I did something I haven't done in a long, long time....
Go out with female friends.
Bekki, one of my coworkers, and I decided to meet up with some other coworkers at Paddy O'Quigleys. We had a blast, just drinking and trying to talk to each other. We also sat in her car for an hour afterwards and just talked. Her and I both needed a night like this and already have plans to do it again.
It feels so good to have a new friend, especially a female one that I feel that I can trust (yes Jaymie I trust you too... probably the only one out of all our high school friends)
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Wednesday, May 31, 2006
A Sad High School Reunion...
Many of my former classmates from high school (and teachers) will be reuniting tomorrow.... but for an unexpected loss of a great and fun-spirited 22 year old male.
Kyle Zammar is no longer with us.
I remembered how funny he was... and talented in whatever he did. I mean, he was the class clown. I had classes with him; my best memory is when he, Monica Heitz, and I (and a couple others) did a project on American History in the 1970's. He and Monica pretended to be Sonny and Cher and sung "I Got You Babe" for our class. Kyle could always make you laugh and everyone loved him.
He will be greatly missed.
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Friday, June 29, 2007
Back on Xanga
It's been over a year since I've been on here.
Things that I am waiting for:
Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix in theaters
Season Four of Grey's Anatomy to start
The final book in the Lemony Snicket collection (just need to go buy it)
For my vacation time to be usable from work
To lose weight
Football season
Just some random things... talk to you guys later
Showing posts with label Xanga Diaries. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Xanga Diaries. Show all posts
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part VI
These Xanga entries were written in the middle of some of the darker days in my marriage to Brian. Fights happened a lot but I didn't want anybody to know about these things. I tried to make holidays and celebrations positive things, which they basically were. I also showed negativity toward moving back with my parents. I actually was relieved to be back there at the time, minus having the independence of having my own place. You will see some of my frustrations coming out with these entries...
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
Currently Watching
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (Full Screen Edition)
By Johnny Depp, Freddie Highmore, David Kelly
Ok, so it has been quite a while since I've written in here...
Truman celebrated his first birthday last week. He received a lot of Elmo toys (his favorite), a piggy bank, lots of new clothes, and lots of other noisy, musical toys. He had a great time with his birthday cake too (and we still haven't cleaned up the place where icing hit the wall in the living room). It's just very hard to believe that he's already a year old.
I'm also doing good at Home Depot. I'm knowing more and more about where everything is in the store. Someday I will probably pick a specific department to work at.
My 22nd birthday is coming up next week. Brian and I are celebrating by going to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. We already have the tickets and a babysitter for the night.
I need to catch up with my friends. I finally will have extra money to go hang out with everyone, I just need to get a time and place to hang out (especially Dixon!!!!!! and Jaymie too... with Daniel)
And that's all I have to say.... about that.
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Currently Watching
Cheaper by the Dozen
By Hilary Duff, Bonnie Hunt, Steve Martin
New year, new life, new budget...
In order to save money, fix our credit and get ahead of the game, Brian, Truman, and I have temporarily moved into my parent's basement. It will suck for a while, but it is a small sacrifice to pay to get things set straight. We have invaded their basement, so in a way it feels like our own apartment.
Mom and Wendy just left for New York City for the week. Mom's got trampoline/tumbling things and Wendy doesn't go back to CMSU yet, so she tagged along. I just wish I could go too.
Now I am going to find something else to do.
hehehehehehe.....
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Friday, February 03, 2006
Currently Listening
Gold Digger
By Kanye West, Jamie Foxx
I'm in a gooooooooooood mood... for no particular reason at all.
I had to call in sick at work last weekend, which is something I've never done before. I was sick though, and felt like complete crap. I'm just glad that Truman didn't catch whatever I had (which I am saying was the stomach flu). There are a couple things going around at my work, and everyone is getting either what I had or strep throat. Yeah, lots of people going home sick right now.
N-E-Ways... Valentine's Day is coming up and I really want to do something with Brian, but I don't know what yet. I guess I'll have to see what his ideas are.. or he may surprise me for all I know.
Truman has learned to terrorize the house... hehehe. He is walking extremely well and has grown another inch (meaning he can reach things better...). He can almost say "hello," but I am predicting he will in the next couple weeks.
Oh, and congrats to my sister Wendy. She just got hired at Victoria's Secret in Independence Center. She's so happy and excited (and she gets free stuff!).
P.S. It's Black History Month.... I'm paying homage by playing my favorite rap and hip hop songs! You do it too!!!
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
You know that feeling where you feel like you're just doing the same thing each day and if you do it any longer, you'll explode?
Yeah... that was me yesterday.
I had to leave the house. I had to get away and do something on my own for a while. I have just felt lonely lately, even though there's five other people living in this house. Brian is hardly home anymore (workaholic) and I feel especially lonely because of that. It makes me not looking forward to Valentines Day, where he and I could possibly spend time together for once in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
I also feel lonely because I've personally ended contact with people I hung out with in high school, just because they've completely changed from how I knew them. Or maybe it's because I've changed since having a baby, and I don't want to deal with people that are constantly going to judge me in a high school drama sort of way. The only people I am willing to hang out with nowadays is Jaymie and Brandon. There are a few others, but they all go to school outside the metro area and haven't finished college yet.
I know I am known as the eternal optimist (duh... nickname's Sunshine), but even I have my days...
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Sunday, November 13, 2005
Currently Watching
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (Full Screen Edition)
By Johnny Depp, Freddie Highmore, David Kelly
Ok, so it has been quite a while since I've written in here...
Truman celebrated his first birthday last week. He received a lot of Elmo toys (his favorite), a piggy bank, lots of new clothes, and lots of other noisy, musical toys. He had a great time with his birthday cake too (and we still haven't cleaned up the place where icing hit the wall in the living room). It's just very hard to believe that he's already a year old.
I'm also doing good at Home Depot. I'm knowing more and more about where everything is in the store. Someday I will probably pick a specific department to work at.
My 22nd birthday is coming up next week. Brian and I are celebrating by going to see Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. We already have the tickets and a babysitter for the night.
I need to catch up with my friends. I finally will have extra money to go hang out with everyone, I just need to get a time and place to hang out (especially Dixon!!!!!! and Jaymie too... with Daniel)
And that's all I have to say.... about that.
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Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Currently Watching
Cheaper by the Dozen
By Hilary Duff, Bonnie Hunt, Steve Martin
New year, new life, new budget...
In order to save money, fix our credit and get ahead of the game, Brian, Truman, and I have temporarily moved into my parent's basement. It will suck for a while, but it is a small sacrifice to pay to get things set straight. We have invaded their basement, so in a way it feels like our own apartment.
Mom and Wendy just left for New York City for the week. Mom's got trampoline/tumbling things and Wendy doesn't go back to CMSU yet, so she tagged along. I just wish I could go too.
Now I am going to find something else to do.
hehehehehehe.....
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Friday, February 03, 2006
Currently Listening
Gold Digger
By Kanye West, Jamie Foxx
I'm in a gooooooooooood mood... for no particular reason at all.
I had to call in sick at work last weekend, which is something I've never done before. I was sick though, and felt like complete crap. I'm just glad that Truman didn't catch whatever I had (which I am saying was the stomach flu). There are a couple things going around at my work, and everyone is getting either what I had or strep throat. Yeah, lots of people going home sick right now.
N-E-Ways... Valentine's Day is coming up and I really want to do something with Brian, but I don't know what yet. I guess I'll have to see what his ideas are.. or he may surprise me for all I know.
Truman has learned to terrorize the house... hehehe. He is walking extremely well and has grown another inch (meaning he can reach things better...). He can almost say "hello," but I am predicting he will in the next couple weeks.
Oh, and congrats to my sister Wendy. She just got hired at Victoria's Secret in Independence Center. She's so happy and excited (and she gets free stuff!).
P.S. It's Black History Month.... I'm paying homage by playing my favorite rap and hip hop songs! You do it too!!!
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Saturday, February 11, 2006
You know that feeling where you feel like you're just doing the same thing each day and if you do it any longer, you'll explode?
Yeah... that was me yesterday.
I had to leave the house. I had to get away and do something on my own for a while. I have just felt lonely lately, even though there's five other people living in this house. Brian is hardly home anymore (workaholic) and I feel especially lonely because of that. It makes me not looking forward to Valentines Day, where he and I could possibly spend time together for once in a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG time.
I also feel lonely because I've personally ended contact with people I hung out with in high school, just because they've completely changed from how I knew them. Or maybe it's because I've changed since having a baby, and I don't want to deal with people that are constantly going to judge me in a high school drama sort of way. The only people I am willing to hang out with nowadays is Jaymie and Brandon. There are a few others, but they all go to school outside the metro area and haven't finished college yet.
I know I am known as the eternal optimist (duh... nickname's Sunshine), but even I have my days...
Thursday, April 21, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part V
In today's Xanga blog, I have five posts to share with you. At this time, I was utelizing the site more with adding things to my posts like pictures and "Currently watching/listening/reading" things. I thought that was cool to be able to add those elements back then, since it helped personalize the entries.
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Friday, July 08, 2005
These pics of Truman were taken the weekend before Father's Day. I just love him so much! Eight months have flown by so fast....
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
Currently Reading
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Book 6)
By J.K. Rowling
I have already finished reading the new Harry Potter book. I loved it.... LOTS of twists and surprises, especially about who's dead and who's dating who. I don't want to spoil anything; that's not my style :^D
I'm already starting to reread it, since you realize hints and stuff beforehand.... and it makes it a better read than the first time.
Now I just have to wait four months for the Goblet of Fire movie to come out.
"Dumbledore will only be gone from the school when none here are loyal to him." -Harry Potter, p. 649
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Friday, August 05, 2005
Currently Watching
The Dukes of Hazzard
By Johnny Knoxville, Seann William Scott, Jessica Simpson
I haven't seen Brian since Tuesday.
No, we are not over. He's just in Springfield doing a show for work. He calls me 7 to 10 times a day because he's bored, but he is kinda enjoying himself too. I know Truman will be sooooooo excited to see Brian when he gets home. He's always excited, but this will top any excitement he's ever shown for his daddy.
Wendy and I are leaving shortly to see The Dukes of Hazzard. I just really really hope that it doesn't suck, because I've seen the previews and it looks like they have plenty of car stunts.
"Just two good ole' boys, never meaning no harm...."
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Monday, August 29, 2005
After waiting ten months after my 21st birthday, I was finally able to gamble for the first time.
Brian and I went with his friend Sonny and his girlfriend Liz on Friday night to Isle of Capri Casino. I won $35 and Brian won $212! Talk about beginner's luck!
Right now I'm job hunting. We finally got a second car so I can have a dependable way to get back and forth to work. Let's just hope the gas prices will finally come down from the spike all summer.
Well, that's all for now. Gonna play with Truman :^D
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Currently Listening
...Baby One More Time [ENHANCED CD]
By Britney Spears
"Hit me baby one more time...."
Today, miss Pop Princess became a mommy. She has a baby boy, delivered by c-section. No word yet on his name.
Based on personal experience, she will have some trouble walking the next couple days... and be fully aware that something happened in her abdominal region.
Britney Spears... a mom....
interesting....
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
If ANYBODY ever gets the opportunity to work at a Home Depot, I would recommend doing anything and everything to keep the job.
I am currently doing orientation there to work at the Lee's Summit store. The pay and benefits are excellent, compared to many other retailers (ex: Walmart, Lowe's). They offer a tuition reimbursement program for any employee (except temps). They also have a fund where in the event of a natural disaster, Home Depot will cut a check for the employees to pick up with their lives (without having to pay them back).
You could not ask for a better company to give you what you are looking for in benefits, pay, and giving to the community.
And you see a lot of the color orange....
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Friday, July 08, 2005
These pics of Truman were taken the weekend before Father's Day. I just love him so much! Eight months have flown by so fast....
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
Currently Reading
Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Book 6)
By J.K. Rowling
I have already finished reading the new Harry Potter book. I loved it.... LOTS of twists and surprises, especially about who's dead and who's dating who. I don't want to spoil anything; that's not my style :^D
I'm already starting to reread it, since you realize hints and stuff beforehand.... and it makes it a better read than the first time.
Now I just have to wait four months for the Goblet of Fire movie to come out.
"Dumbledore will only be gone from the school when none here are loyal to him." -Harry Potter, p. 649
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Friday, August 05, 2005
Currently Watching
The Dukes of Hazzard
By Johnny Knoxville, Seann William Scott, Jessica Simpson
I haven't seen Brian since Tuesday.
No, we are not over. He's just in Springfield doing a show for work. He calls me 7 to 10 times a day because he's bored, but he is kinda enjoying himself too. I know Truman will be sooooooo excited to see Brian when he gets home. He's always excited, but this will top any excitement he's ever shown for his daddy.
Wendy and I are leaving shortly to see The Dukes of Hazzard. I just really really hope that it doesn't suck, because I've seen the previews and it looks like they have plenty of car stunts.
"Just two good ole' boys, never meaning no harm...."
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Monday, August 29, 2005
After waiting ten months after my 21st birthday, I was finally able to gamble for the first time.
Brian and I went with his friend Sonny and his girlfriend Liz on Friday night to Isle of Capri Casino. I won $35 and Brian won $212! Talk about beginner's luck!
Right now I'm job hunting. We finally got a second car so I can have a dependable way to get back and forth to work. Let's just hope the gas prices will finally come down from the spike all summer.
Well, that's all for now. Gonna play with Truman :^D
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
Currently Listening
...Baby One More Time [ENHANCED CD]
By Britney Spears
"Hit me baby one more time...."
Today, miss Pop Princess became a mommy. She has a baby boy, delivered by c-section. No word yet on his name.
Based on personal experience, she will have some trouble walking the next couple days... and be fully aware that something happened in her abdominal region.
Britney Spears... a mom....
interesting....
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
If ANYBODY ever gets the opportunity to work at a Home Depot, I would recommend doing anything and everything to keep the job.
I am currently doing orientation there to work at the Lee's Summit store. The pay and benefits are excellent, compared to many other retailers (ex: Walmart, Lowe's). They offer a tuition reimbursement program for any employee (except temps). They also have a fund where in the event of a natural disaster, Home Depot will cut a check for the employees to pick up with their lives (without having to pay them back).
You could not ask for a better company to give you what you are looking for in benefits, pay, and giving to the community.
And you see a lot of the color orange....
Sunday, April 17, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part IV
For this edition of the Xanga Diaries... I am presenting a handful of posts I wrote spring and summer 2005. The first entry was a rant over a friend of mine, who has since gotten out of the "fakeness" that I described. The others are short entries, but I give a few shout outs to some of my high school classmates who have found themselves in the public spotlight.
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Fake Friends
One of the challenges in social life is finding real friends. Some people you grow up with and remain friends after the school years have ended. Some you make in high school and occasionally talk to. Others are just there to make drama in your life.
I have come to the realization that a person (and I'm not surprised by it at all) never really liked me, but seems to be interested in my life because of other people's lives.
Let's start with the one that I really never had a friendship with... S. I first knew who she was because she was making out with a guy that one of my close friends was dating. A year later, my best friend introduced me to her and we hung out with the same people.
Then, junior and senior year, it seemed like there was some sort of unspoken competition between her and I... and it involved the male sex. If a guy were to pay more attention to me (for dating or not... Ben, Kress, Brandon, Hosmann), she would try to get in the way so she could steal the attention. And half the time, it resulted in a pattern of friends to enemies to friends, etc.
But after high school, it kept on going. A few months ago, S had contacted me wanting to make amends completely and just be friends. I didn't buy the story, so I just let it go and went on with my life.
Then, two weeks ago, I talked to one of my girlfriends on the phone. The next day, I got a call from S. All she did was ask about my friend. At that moment, I was cooking and wasn't really reading into it. I realized that all she was doing was using what I knew to get dirt on people she likes to gossip about.
I'm sorry, but aren't friendships supposed to be about trust, honesty, and having fun? I know that some things get in the way, like college, military, and babies, but why do those things somehow become "good dirt" on people? Why can't someone just be happy with their man and their family without someone trying to create drama for nothing? It makes me wonder if S is jealous of my girlfriends and I for having hubby's/fiances and babies....
But I do know one thing... I cannot find a guy that knows or dated S that actually cares about her, let alone likes her (except her most recent ex, unless it was that bad of a breakup, she dumped him). And, to me, she will always be a backstabber that cannot be trusted.
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
My monitor fried..... so if you don't see me updating, that's why.
I hope I get a new one soon, since I am paying for DSL....
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Friday, June 03, 2005
Mindi Emanuel is in a reality show on the WB.
It is called Beauty and the Geek... don't know what day of the week that it is on.
It's just surprising to see one of your classmates on TV, but honestly, I didn't think Mindi would be on reality tv. I thought she would have done something like that movie she was in during my senior year.
I figured I would share that with my friends and old classmates :^D
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
I knew Nick Webber was on the CMSU baseball team and that they did excellent this season.
What I just saw on the news is that the St. Louis Cardinals have recruited him.
I think it would be awesome if he started playing for them in the next couple seasons.
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Fake Friends
One of the challenges in social life is finding real friends. Some people you grow up with and remain friends after the school years have ended. Some you make in high school and occasionally talk to. Others are just there to make drama in your life.
I have come to the realization that a person (and I'm not surprised by it at all) never really liked me, but seems to be interested in my life because of other people's lives.
Let's start with the one that I really never had a friendship with... S. I first knew who she was because she was making out with a guy that one of my close friends was dating. A year later, my best friend introduced me to her and we hung out with the same people.
Then, junior and senior year, it seemed like there was some sort of unspoken competition between her and I... and it involved the male sex. If a guy were to pay more attention to me (for dating or not... Ben, Kress, Brandon, Hosmann), she would try to get in the way so she could steal the attention. And half the time, it resulted in a pattern of friends to enemies to friends, etc.
But after high school, it kept on going. A few months ago, S had contacted me wanting to make amends completely and just be friends. I didn't buy the story, so I just let it go and went on with my life.
Then, two weeks ago, I talked to one of my girlfriends on the phone. The next day, I got a call from S. All she did was ask about my friend. At that moment, I was cooking and wasn't really reading into it. I realized that all she was doing was using what I knew to get dirt on people she likes to gossip about.
I'm sorry, but aren't friendships supposed to be about trust, honesty, and having fun? I know that some things get in the way, like college, military, and babies, but why do those things somehow become "good dirt" on people? Why can't someone just be happy with their man and their family without someone trying to create drama for nothing? It makes me wonder if S is jealous of my girlfriends and I for having hubby's/fiances and babies....
But I do know one thing... I cannot find a guy that knows or dated S that actually cares about her, let alone likes her (except her most recent ex, unless it was that bad of a breakup, she dumped him). And, to me, she will always be a backstabber that cannot be trusted.
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Sunday, May 08, 2005
My monitor fried..... so if you don't see me updating, that's why.
I hope I get a new one soon, since I am paying for DSL....
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Friday, June 03, 2005
Mindi Emanuel is in a reality show on the WB.
It is called Beauty and the Geek... don't know what day of the week that it is on.
It's just surprising to see one of your classmates on TV, but honestly, I didn't think Mindi would be on reality tv. I thought she would have done something like that movie she was in during my senior year.
I figured I would share that with my friends and old classmates :^D
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
I knew Nick Webber was on the CMSU baseball team and that they did excellent this season.
What I just saw on the news is that the St. Louis Cardinals have recruited him.
I think it would be awesome if he started playing for them in the next couple seasons.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part III
From this point on, you will see multiple postings in my Xanga Diaries blogs. I have a couple posted below. One has a lot of shout-outs to friends from high school (before the days where we all got Facebook accounts) and the other is a rant over something that I saw on television. Enjoy!
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Reunions
There are a few times a year where I get to see a lot of people from high school back in Lee's Summit. One of these times is now... Spring Break. Every year that I'm reunited with old friends and acquaintances, there are drastic changes. It makes me curious about how our class of 2002 high school reunion (5 years) will be in a couple years, and then again at our 10 year reunion.
Like I've mentioned before... a lot of my friends have babies. But I've realized that there's a whole lot more that do. And for one friend, who just gave birth to her second daughter last week. Another friend of mine (Katrina), married and with a baby, almost got divorced because her husband left her for a few weeks. It's scary that before the first reunion, someone can get married, have a kid, and be divorced. But fortunately, they are back to living together.
Someone won't even make it to our high school reunion because he passed away a few months ago from alcohol poisoning. My best friend Maria went to his funeral. It was way too unbelievable for her.
A group of kids from high school have been on television already, one of them was Jothan Schiller. Last time I saw him, he was renting Finding Nemo from me (when I worked at Blockbuster) and we had a great conversation. I heard that he and his friends were on one of those daytime court shows over something... don't know what though.
I'm just waiting to hear about someone at the reunion about a really great job and having huge success. My prediction is that it will be Blake Hern, who I heard that is following in his father's steps in the business field.
I'm just in the mood to find a bunch of my classmates and catch up, whether I was friends with them, acquaintances (like Andria Rentie and Genevieve Valle), or just people I would talk to every so often in whatever class I was in.
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Thursday, March 31, 2005
Stereotypes
I just saw a commercial on television that has offended me, even though it wasn't directed at my race.
The commercial was for truth.com, a program that is supposed to give people a reality check on what is in drugs and alcohol.
This commercial was in an office setting, with a bunch of executive people that work for a cigarette company. They were trying to find ways to make their product reach target audiences.
When they got to discussion blacks/African Americans (I must point out that all these executives are white men), they said "Why don't we make them in packs of ten since blacks don't have as much money?" All the men agreed and then the slogan "It would have been funnier if we knew that it wasn't the truth."
I was extremely offended by this commercial. The program is basically saying that all blacks are poor and can't afford an entire pack of cigarettes. I'm not a smoker, but I'm appalled at the stereotype. And I know that there are others who are just as offended. This company is treating all blacks like they are all poor, when I know for a fact that it isn't true.
Things like this just piss me off. These people need to grow up and look at reality for once. I wouldn't even be stupid enough to attempt to release something like this to the general public, especially during the Noon news.
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Saturday, March 12, 2005
Reunions
There are a few times a year where I get to see a lot of people from high school back in Lee's Summit. One of these times is now... Spring Break. Every year that I'm reunited with old friends and acquaintances, there are drastic changes. It makes me curious about how our class of 2002 high school reunion (5 years) will be in a couple years, and then again at our 10 year reunion.
Like I've mentioned before... a lot of my friends have babies. But I've realized that there's a whole lot more that do. And for one friend, who just gave birth to her second daughter last week. Another friend of mine (Katrina), married and with a baby, almost got divorced because her husband left her for a few weeks. It's scary that before the first reunion, someone can get married, have a kid, and be divorced. But fortunately, they are back to living together.
Someone won't even make it to our high school reunion because he passed away a few months ago from alcohol poisoning. My best friend Maria went to his funeral. It was way too unbelievable for her.
A group of kids from high school have been on television already, one of them was Jothan Schiller. Last time I saw him, he was renting Finding Nemo from me (when I worked at Blockbuster) and we had a great conversation. I heard that he and his friends were on one of those daytime court shows over something... don't know what though.
I'm just waiting to hear about someone at the reunion about a really great job and having huge success. My prediction is that it will be Blake Hern, who I heard that is following in his father's steps in the business field.
I'm just in the mood to find a bunch of my classmates and catch up, whether I was friends with them, acquaintances (like Andria Rentie and Genevieve Valle), or just people I would talk to every so often in whatever class I was in.
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Thursday, March 31, 2005
Stereotypes
I just saw a commercial on television that has offended me, even though it wasn't directed at my race.
The commercial was for truth.com, a program that is supposed to give people a reality check on what is in drugs and alcohol.
This commercial was in an office setting, with a bunch of executive people that work for a cigarette company. They were trying to find ways to make their product reach target audiences.
When they got to discussion blacks/African Americans (I must point out that all these executives are white men), they said "Why don't we make them in packs of ten since blacks don't have as much money?" All the men agreed and then the slogan "It would have been funnier if we knew that it wasn't the truth."
I was extremely offended by this commercial. The program is basically saying that all blacks are poor and can't afford an entire pack of cigarettes. I'm not a smoker, but I'm appalled at the stereotype. And I know that there are others who are just as offended. This company is treating all blacks like they are all poor, when I know for a fact that it isn't true.
Things like this just piss me off. These people need to grow up and look at reality for once. I wouldn't even be stupid enough to attempt to release something like this to the general public, especially during the Noon news.
Thursday, April 7, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part II
When I created my Xanga account, I wanted to pay homage to my favorite show at the time, Sex and the City. Carrie Bradshaw (Sarah Jessica Parker) had her own column in a paper about sex and dating/ relationships. Since I aspired to have a column of my own, I thought that writing would help me establish a younger, Midwestern version of Sex and the City. I named my Xanga account The Next Carrie Bradshaw.
As I read the following post, I realized that I wrote this five days before I got married to my ex-husband. Interesting. I can't remember if we had obtained the marriage license yet, but the marriage was hidden from my family for a long time (not proud about that, by the way).
So anyway, enjoy this blast from the past (which the format totally resembles a college term paper... at least it did to me when reading it, lol).
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Monday, January 03, 2005
Changes
In a lifetime, there are many major milestones (or changes) that one can experience. After one of these milestones happen, there are an unlimited amount of things that can also happen. Depending on how that person handles these situations determines if they believe that they can still reach their goals in life. Why is it that no matter what happens in life, it somehow gets compared to how things were like when we were in high school?
Something that usually is compared first is relationships. When anyone first starts to date, they notice things that they like or dislike about a person. Anytime that a new person comes into the picture, they are automatically compared to that first person, sometimes setting new likes and dislikes. This eventually becomes a pattern and starts a new pattern, dating the same kind of people. For me, I tended to go for guys who played football in high school or firefighters. Unfortunately, for someone who has had dysfunctional relationships, another pattern can develop, comparing the exes to each other by slandering them. One of my exes, I've noticed, is doing that to his most recent ex-girlfriend. He's starting to grow very pessimistic about relationships because of her and because of the girl that he dated right after me. No matter what happens in a relationship, it always is compared to previous relationships.
A fallback to going through a major change is the feeling that you'll deeply miss "the good old days" where everyone was together and had a great time. This happens especially after high school graduation and after college graduation. When a person moves away from their family to pursue their dreams and goals, returning home (either visiting or staying) seems less and less enjoyable. Some no longer feel welcome in their hometown and others develop new (and harmful) habits to try to cope with the change. Some of these habits can be drugs, alcohol, sex, or even crime. This path can lead to be very dangerous to a person, and as long as they have people who care about them, they WILL have the power to get out of these habits (and counseling or medications are not always the answer, I see them as a very last resort type of thing.. and I'd rather not be codependent on either thing to get on with life).
Moving away is another change that definitely gets compared to with the high school days. When somebody moves out and starts to live on their own (or with a roommate or spouse), the "real world" seems to kick them in the ass. All of a sudden, a person has to deal with bills and keeping a job to pay for the bills, budgeting, buying groceries, and (for some) having a family and children. None of these things were issues in high school; the biggest issues used to be boyfriend/girlfriend related or finding money (or begging the parents for some) to hang out with your friends.
No matter what life seems to throw at us, eventually we all have to change. My best advice is just to go with the flow and accept the changes with as much optimism as you can. Unless you enjoy being a pessimist, I don't recommend being one because life seems to get worse and worse if you think that way. And as far as high school goes, it is in the past and you can't change what happened then. But you CAN change what happens in your future...
As I read the following post, I realized that I wrote this five days before I got married to my ex-husband. Interesting. I can't remember if we had obtained the marriage license yet, but the marriage was hidden from my family for a long time (not proud about that, by the way).
So anyway, enjoy this blast from the past (which the format totally resembles a college term paper... at least it did to me when reading it, lol).
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Monday, January 03, 2005
Changes
In a lifetime, there are many major milestones (or changes) that one can experience. After one of these milestones happen, there are an unlimited amount of things that can also happen. Depending on how that person handles these situations determines if they believe that they can still reach their goals in life. Why is it that no matter what happens in life, it somehow gets compared to how things were like when we were in high school?
Something that usually is compared first is relationships. When anyone first starts to date, they notice things that they like or dislike about a person. Anytime that a new person comes into the picture, they are automatically compared to that first person, sometimes setting new likes and dislikes. This eventually becomes a pattern and starts a new pattern, dating the same kind of people. For me, I tended to go for guys who played football in high school or firefighters. Unfortunately, for someone who has had dysfunctional relationships, another pattern can develop, comparing the exes to each other by slandering them. One of my exes, I've noticed, is doing that to his most recent ex-girlfriend. He's starting to grow very pessimistic about relationships because of her and because of the girl that he dated right after me. No matter what happens in a relationship, it always is compared to previous relationships.
A fallback to going through a major change is the feeling that you'll deeply miss "the good old days" where everyone was together and had a great time. This happens especially after high school graduation and after college graduation. When a person moves away from their family to pursue their dreams and goals, returning home (either visiting or staying) seems less and less enjoyable. Some no longer feel welcome in their hometown and others develop new (and harmful) habits to try to cope with the change. Some of these habits can be drugs, alcohol, sex, or even crime. This path can lead to be very dangerous to a person, and as long as they have people who care about them, they WILL have the power to get out of these habits (and counseling or medications are not always the answer, I see them as a very last resort type of thing.. and I'd rather not be codependent on either thing to get on with life).
Moving away is another change that definitely gets compared to with the high school days. When somebody moves out and starts to live on their own (or with a roommate or spouse), the "real world" seems to kick them in the ass. All of a sudden, a person has to deal with bills and keeping a job to pay for the bills, budgeting, buying groceries, and (for some) having a family and children. None of these things were issues in high school; the biggest issues used to be boyfriend/girlfriend related or finding money (or begging the parents for some) to hang out with your friends.
No matter what life seems to throw at us, eventually we all have to change. My best advice is just to go with the flow and accept the changes with as much optimism as you can. Unless you enjoy being a pessimist, I don't recommend being one because life seems to get worse and worse if you think that way. And as far as high school goes, it is in the past and you can't change what happened then. But you CAN change what happens in your future...
Friday, April 1, 2011
The Xanga Diaries: Part I
One night in March, I was bored and decided to see if my Xanga account was still active. To my surprise, it was, even though I had gone through the steps to have it deleted a long time ago. As I read all the entries from when I was 21-23 years old, I realized that some of my entries were hinting on angst (this was also the time where I was a new mom and was married to my ex-husband... so some of my entries about my ex were not revealing what was really going on behind closed doors).
After I read all the entries, I decided that I'm going to share them. I have separated the entries into seven blogs, which will be randomly dispersed this month.
To my close girlfriends who may or may not read these... I'm going to apologize now if any of these entries hurt your feelings. This time of my life had a lot of darkness in it... as you guys might remember.
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Friday, December 31, 2004
Four Women, Four Long-Term Relationships, and Four Babies
Three years ago, six close girlfriends spend time together during their senior year of high school. Throughout the year, two of them would always be against each other, either about spreading rumors or about a guy or even about not spending time with each other. Once high school ended, they all went their separate ways to live their dreams. But for four of these girls, life threw them something they never expected to have before their five year reunion... babies. Each had their own unique qualities that made them known to people in high school and now they all are experiencing what parenthood is all about. Even though life can change with a pregnancy test, can a person still be the same after having a baby?
Lets start with the first one to have a baby. In high school, she was the purest of the group and always loyal to her friends. She did not have her first long-term boyfriend until the end of senior year. He later became her fiance and moved in with her and her family. She got pregnant in fall 2003 and had a son in May 2004. She currently works full time, takes care of her son, and is still planning on her dream of opening her own daycare center. She and her fiance are planning to get married in the next year or two and eventually move out to a place of their own.
Then there is number two. She was the wildest of the group and had an on-again, off-again boyfriend for four years (2 years high school, 2 years after). She was the first one to get a place of her own after graduation and all she did was work, party, and spent time with whoever she dated at the time. She also got pregnant in fall 2003, but got married to the father in April 2004. Two months later, she gave birth to a girl six weeks early, creating a little stress on her and hubby. She isn't working so she spends all the time with the baby. She might go back to work, but she isn't sure.
The third one to have a baby is me. If i could describe myself in high school, I was the hopeless romantic who knew she wanted to be a writer. After high school, I went to one college in St. Louis, then came back home to go to the community college. One day, after finishing my finals in 2003, I met a guy at the drive in. By October, we were engaged, living together the next month, and I was pregnant in February 2004. We had Truman in November. I wasn't planning on returning to work, but ended up due to unexpected bills. I'm still going to college, but I'm limited to doing night and weekend classes.
The last of the four women is still pregnant. She was the one that was all talk and no action, but was always there to defend her friends. A few months before graduation, her family moved an hour away, forcing her to graduate without her close friends. She soon after moved in with her grandparents and met a great guy. As time went on, the guy and her would fight, leading to him abusing her mentally, then physically. After one of the girls and I (and our men) tried to help her get out of the situation, she still ended up back with him and stopped defending us when he would threaten to hurt her friends. She is now pregnant with his son and has to deal with some rejection and disappointment from her close friends.
These women have gone through many life changes in the past three years, and we all compare how we were and how we are. It seems like we are all generally the same, but we all have little bundles of joy to care for and love, as well as the men who got us pregnant.
After I read all the entries, I decided that I'm going to share them. I have separated the entries into seven blogs, which will be randomly dispersed this month.
To my close girlfriends who may or may not read these... I'm going to apologize now if any of these entries hurt your feelings. This time of my life had a lot of darkness in it... as you guys might remember.
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Friday, December 31, 2004
Four Women, Four Long-Term Relationships, and Four Babies
Three years ago, six close girlfriends spend time together during their senior year of high school. Throughout the year, two of them would always be against each other, either about spreading rumors or about a guy or even about not spending time with each other. Once high school ended, they all went their separate ways to live their dreams. But for four of these girls, life threw them something they never expected to have before their five year reunion... babies. Each had their own unique qualities that made them known to people in high school and now they all are experiencing what parenthood is all about. Even though life can change with a pregnancy test, can a person still be the same after having a baby?
Lets start with the first one to have a baby. In high school, she was the purest of the group and always loyal to her friends. She did not have her first long-term boyfriend until the end of senior year. He later became her fiance and moved in with her and her family. She got pregnant in fall 2003 and had a son in May 2004. She currently works full time, takes care of her son, and is still planning on her dream of opening her own daycare center. She and her fiance are planning to get married in the next year or two and eventually move out to a place of their own.
Then there is number two. She was the wildest of the group and had an on-again, off-again boyfriend for four years (2 years high school, 2 years after). She was the first one to get a place of her own after graduation and all she did was work, party, and spent time with whoever she dated at the time. She also got pregnant in fall 2003, but got married to the father in April 2004. Two months later, she gave birth to a girl six weeks early, creating a little stress on her and hubby. She isn't working so she spends all the time with the baby. She might go back to work, but she isn't sure.
The third one to have a baby is me. If i could describe myself in high school, I was the hopeless romantic who knew she wanted to be a writer. After high school, I went to one college in St. Louis, then came back home to go to the community college. One day, after finishing my finals in 2003, I met a guy at the drive in. By October, we were engaged, living together the next month, and I was pregnant in February 2004. We had Truman in November. I wasn't planning on returning to work, but ended up due to unexpected bills. I'm still going to college, but I'm limited to doing night and weekend classes.
The last of the four women is still pregnant. She was the one that was all talk and no action, but was always there to defend her friends. A few months before graduation, her family moved an hour away, forcing her to graduate without her close friends. She soon after moved in with her grandparents and met a great guy. As time went on, the guy and her would fight, leading to him abusing her mentally, then physically. After one of the girls and I (and our men) tried to help her get out of the situation, she still ended up back with him and stopped defending us when he would threaten to hurt her friends. She is now pregnant with his son and has to deal with some rejection and disappointment from her close friends.
These women have gone through many life changes in the past three years, and we all compare how we were and how we are. It seems like we are all generally the same, but we all have little bundles of joy to care for and love, as well as the men who got us pregnant.
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